Clean slate
So, lately i have dealt with a lot of trauma that just needed to be dealt with. For starters the insane reason i kept feeling like i wasn't good enough for people when i am. The insane reason i felt the need that i had to have other peoples approval and affection in order to feel loved. I simply was conditioned to not love myself and believe what others thought about me as true when it wasn't true. A lot of the distorted thoughts are gone now. the intrusive thoughts are significantly less and i feel like i can breathe again for a short while. Then of course there's the issues with the spouse right now. I have reached my limit and exceeded my threshold by far. I have so many recordings on my phone of the outlandish things I am accused of and the way i am talked to and treated. I had hoped him going to rehab that he would have worked on himself enough and been away long enough that he had decided to stay sober for his health and to avoid ruining more relationships. I was...